Everytime I think about it, it makes me so sad. People really do wake up one day and are a completely different person and out of nowhere they decide to cut you out of their lives, just like that, like you meant nothing at all. You expect boys and relationships to screw you over, things to end, to break up, move on, etc…but you never, ever expect a friendship to end. It’s so painful to think about. So many people just give up, let go and move on. I can’t do that and I don’t know how others can be so brutal about letting go of someone that they were so close with for so long. When I’m friends with someone, I’m their friend 100 percent. When I love someone, I love them with all I have. When I care about someone, that never goes away. To me, friendship is about never giving up. It’s about being there for your friend, growing with each other, learning to forgive, and understand that you’re going to make mistakes and have fights along the way but that all adds strength to a friendship. So many people, they have one little bump in the road and they’re done. I’ll never understand something like that. It’s so sad. With a little effort and communication, you can save almost anything. It’s upsetting to know that you weren’t worth someone’s little efforts. But I can’t cross the bridge for you. All I can do is try and be the best person I can be and if someone doesn’t want to continue a friendship than that’s their decision, but most of all, their loss, because when I’m your friend, I’m a friend for life.

It’s just awful when friendships end. When you have to deal with living your life like you used to, like nothing different has happened, when really everything different has happened. When you’re used to being with someone all the time and sharing with them and telling them everything, it’s hard to one day wake up to realize they’re gone and they’re not coming back and everything you once held in that person is gone and you’re on your own. It’s just painful, but then time starts to pass and pass and you begin to slowly move on and readjust your life and then one day you realize, it’s okay. You’re okay. Things end in life. Even if you don’t want them to. Day by day, little by little, you begin to move on without them. The beautiful part is believeing that everything happens for a reason and then realizing the reason. Realizing that you’re better off. You’re in a better place and looking at all you’ve accomplished after they’ve left. All the new places you’ve been, all the new friends you’ve made, all the new adventures you’ve embarked on. You realize that life is pretty good, even when you thought it wasn’t going to be good without them. It’s nice to look back and realize that you’re happy where you are. You wish them the best, but in the end what’s meant to be will be and everyone, both past friends and new friends and yourself, deserves to be happy and it’s just really awesome when you realize you are.